Fathering in Faith

This Thanksgiving, I spent some time remembering how it was the year before and how it feels now.

The first year, I remember being so frustrated seeing others be thankful having their full family. And also thankful that so many people from our family and friends helped me with Ramsey. I thought I was doing well per se, but I think I was in a fog the first three months after Christina passed.

This is gonna sound a little depressing so I’m sorry about that, but I thought that I could eventually have the same feeling of wholeness I had before Christina died. In reality, I don’t think I will. I’m not talking about having a spouse and more kids, instead, I’m just realizing that the hole Christina left will stay with us. You can have joy and sorrow simultaneously though. Holidays are just tough. They remind you of the blessing you had. At the same time, I noticed I was able to see the blessings I currently have more this year.

Usually I have something helpful for those reading or those also walking in grief. Here is my simple word: take it easy on yourself. Feel the feelings. It’s ok if this is your first set of holidays and you’re in a fog. Let those around you help. Ask for help. And maybe look for the small things God continues to provide in the midst of your pain.