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Being Alone Sucks

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Some days are rougher than others. Some days are super easy. Like my friend shared with me tonight, some days are like a tidal wave.

It took over three months, but today I think I finally processed that I’m just scared to be alone.

I have a lot of family and friends that are so present. But the toughest part is after Ramsey is asleep and what used to be a sweet time between me and my bride is now met with the void. I’ve managed to fill it a lot with things. But tonight I just don’t want to. I want to sit here and feel it. And it sucks haha. If Christina wasn’t in a better place, I’d be wishing her back now.

Will you say a prayer for me when you read this?

I know I have support. I know I’m not “really” alone. But I feel the void deeply tonight. And it sucks.

Joshua C Mitchell

7 responses to “Being Alone Sucks”

  1. James Kingsmill Avatar
    James Kingsmill

    Josh:

    I know the “alone” perspective but in an entirely different way. I’m an only child. (Not planned because my twin sisters died shortly after birth when I was two.). I lost my parents a year apart. It’s an apples to oranges comparison. I had no other person who had the same degree relation to them with which to grieve and I had never felt so alone in my entire life. The day after my dad’s funeral, I went to my parents house. No one was there. All the relatives were gone. It was like the fairgrounds after the last day of the fair. I know who isolated and alone I felt. I can’t imagine your pain, but your faith and tenacity being there for your son moves me. Y’all have been and will continue to be in our prayers. 

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  2. Stacie Baker Avatar
    Stacie Baker

    Ugh. I get this. I understand this. I’m so sorry that you do, too. Praying!

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  3. Amy Avatar
    Amy

    praying

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  4. Patty Goodin Avatar
    Patty Goodin

    I fully understand Josh and I’m so sorry you have to process through this. I know you’re facing this far better than I did or anyone else I know. You are an inspiration to many Josh and many love and pray for you. I will continue to lift you and Ramsey up and pray for God’s peace in your soul and you continue to hold to His promises. You will make it through. Give yourself some grace 3 months is really not very long. Sending love, hugs and prayers. ❤️

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  5. Robert Varner Avatar
    Robert Varner

    love you, friend. Praying that God fills you with comfort and the reality that in Him you are never truly alone.

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  6. ddblankenship Avatar
    ddblankenship

    Prayers up! Singleness is a tough journey, and I can’t imagine what it must be like when it’s brought on by loss. You are so loved!

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  7. Shelley Hildebrand Avatar
    Shelley Hildebrand

    Praying for you right now!! Thank you for sharing and being so humble and vulnerable. Some things just do not make sense and suck and so sorry you have to walk through this! Praying for comfort and peace that only God can give!!

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