Fathering in Faith

October 23rd, 2014 to 2023

I didn’t intend to write two blogs in such a short period of time, but the calendar can slap sometimes. I was looking through Christina’s old Facebook account that got hacked in 2021 so that I could find a picture of her and her friend to share with the friend on her birthday today. As I was looking, I noticed our engagement pictures. I remember that it was in October when we got engaged and I would always forget the date. Turns out that we got engaged October 23rd. The same day Christina went to be with Jesus.

To add to it, the one month anniversary of her death is on Thanksgiving this year.

I was talking to a friend today about grief and he mentioned how the dates can hit hard. And all this was happening when I was giving Ramsey a bath. I started crying and he asked me what’s wrong. I just said that I miss Mommy. And we talked a little again about how she is with Jesus. He’s still coming to understand. He asked her if she is sad and I told him she’s very happy now because she gets to be with Jesus and we will get to be with her and Jesus one day as well.

I don’t think I’ll forget the day we got engaged anymore. I wish that we had more than 9 years of knowing each other. It feels like a full life, but also a few fleeting moments. If I could go back, I’d soak up every moment. I’d live in such a way that I give my all to her every moment.

That’s how it should have been in the first place. Life is short. And if I can encourage anyone, whether married or not, to soak in every moment. Don’t waste time being selfish. Celebrate the dates and don’t take them for granted.

Because eventually the calendar will slap sometimes.